Mothers Day & Narcissisim

Every time Mother's Day comes along, I feel dread. Just the thought of what I should buy for her knowing that she's not going to like it fathoms me. It's like I already know she's not going to appreciate it as soon as I purchase whatever it is. She only likes what she asked for. But the funny thing is, many times she never tells me what she wants, so I'm screwed either way. I can give her the most thoughtful gift in the world and she'll look at it like I just handed her I have a can of day old tuna. What bothers me most about that, is Mother's Day is supposed to be especially event where you show appreciation and say thank you to your mom for being the best, but she wasn't the best. What do you do with that? This year like any other year she had an argument with me about something so petty a couple days go. She planned the entire day herself without asking me what I wanted to do, barbecue and all this other stuff, I didn't even get a chance to say yes or no. But I'm expected to come to her house tomorrow and act like everything is all good after she disrespected me once again. I'm not going but I know that's going to start another fresh argument which I'm not looking forward to. I can't win with her. Not to mention it ruins my own Mother's Day where I don't even want to celebrate at all. I just want this holiday to be over with